Unconditional love, fear & moving forwards together with dyslexia

I will try to explain the working of my zerotohero challenges in to this post for it all to make sense, perhaps.

 On Day 19 we had to publish a post in a new to you format never used before, with this I used the image post format, a picture of one of my children with a quote on unconditional love.

There was also a daily prompt at the same time:  The Luckiest People – who was the first person you encountered today?  Write about him or her.

Though I didn’t write this Daily Prompt, it got me thinking, because I had thought about my son off and on most of that night, tossing and turning after a few struggles and recent news and he was the first person I saw the next morning as he came in with his heavy lidded sleepy eyes and crawled in to my bed to say “good morning mummy”.

Then oddly enough Day 21’s assignment and yes I did do day 20 inserting a new page in to one of my other blogs, but Day 21’s assignment is: Build on your new to you format post, and let the world know & publish this on a social media website.  I have indeed created a Facebook page and linked my blog to both this and Twitter through publicize on one of my other accounts, woohoo.

So as you can see Day 21 ties in nicely with what I had been thinking about on my picture which you will see below.

The post prior was about unconditional love, the love in my mind that a parent has for their child, the quote sums it up for me, that we can be happy when we know our children are at peace.

“Of them all, it was the true love. Of them all, it was the best. That other sumptuous love which made one drunk, which one longed for, envied, believed in, that was not life. It was what life was seeking; it was a suspension of life. But to be close to a child, for whom one spent everything, whose life was protected and nourished by one’s own, to have that child beside one, at peace, was the real, the deepest, the only joy.”
― James Salter, Light Years

There have been a few struggles recently, confusion, me feeling like I am doing things wrong as a parent, the frustrations of thinking I could be supporting my children better but just not knowing how.

The day I posted the picture (Day 19) in the evening I got partial news from an assessment that I have had done for my youngest and the news was that he suffers from severe dyslexia.  I was confused and angry why his school had not picked this up, I was told that because he is of (the therapists quote) “superior intelligence” that this masks the dyslexia quite well though obviously the frustrations, lack of concentration etc still happens.

How did I feel afterwards?

I felt incredibly sad, not because he has dyslexia, but for me the picture some up my sadness eerily aptly if you take a good look at it.

“Of them all, it was the true love. Of them all, it was the best. That other sumptuous love which made one drunk, which one longed for, envied, believed in, that was not life. It was what life was seeking; it was a suspension of life. But to be close to a child, for whom one spent everything, whose life was protected and nourished by one's own, to have that child beside one, at peace, was the real, the deepest, the only joy.”― James Salter, Light Years

“Of them all, it was the true love. Of them all, it was the best. That other sumptuous love which made one drunk, which one longed for, envied, believed in, that was not life. It was what life was seeking; it was a suspension of life. But to be close to a child, for whom one spent everything, whose life was protected and nourished by one’s own, to have that child beside one, at peace, was the real, the deepest, the only joy.”
― James Salter, Light Years

My son up until now has travelled this journey alone, a long winding path of frustrations, confusion and other feelings of course he can only know.  The path to me symbolizes this, one which he is nearing the end.  The darkness, almost a silhouette symbolizes for me the past, he is nearly next to me on his walk.

So now, we move on to the future, hopefully me being better equipped.  Positive after having sent myself cross eyed researching dyslexia and seeing it as something positive rather than negative.

Now I can hope to implement that feeling as in the above quote of my child feeling at peace with his mother at his side hopefully unwinding all the bits of confusion and helping him along the way of a bright sunny path.

Onwards and upwards as us jolly Brits say!

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  5 comments for “Unconditional love, fear & moving forwards together with dyslexia

  1. January 23, 2014 at 9:21 PM

    Hugs to you. If I may offer another quote, perhaps a cliche, but often I find true and comforting, “there’s always light at the end of the tunnel.” XOXO

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    • January 23, 2014 at 10:04 PM

      Yes very true and I am a fan of those cliche quotes because they work a bit like a mantra! Thank you for the comment, quote and hugs x

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  2. branchingmama
    January 24, 2014 at 4:08 PM

    Firstly, well done you on getting an assessment done for your little man. You worry about doing the best for him and you are showing that you have! Getting an assessment when the school hasn’t picked up on a problem is hard work so you need to give yourself a pat on the back. Now your bright little boy will get the support he needs so he can access the information in a way he can understand.
    I looked at that photo and I can see the little warrior ready with his doggy companions ready to take on the world and win. It is sad that he has struggled so far but with his new diagnosis, he can now take on the world. That is how I see him. Hope this helps a bit. 🙂

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    • January 24, 2014 at 5:57 PM

      Awe thank you, that felt quite emotional reading that but in a good way 🙂 Your right, it feels like a relief, the doors have opened to new opportunities and strategies of ways that I can help him as well as being given the knowledge with research of how to work with the school and assure that he gets the most appropriate help there also. Thank you for following me also 🙂

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