You write because you have an idea in your mind that feels so genuine, so important, so true. And yet, by the time this idea passes through the different filters of your mind, and into your hand, and onto the page or computer screen — it becomes distorted, and it’s been diminished. The writing you end up with is an approximation, if you’re lucky, of whatever it was you really wanted to say.
– Author Khaled Hosseini, “How to Write,” the Atlantic
Writing 101 Day 1 – Unlock your mind
Why does the above statement given by the Daily Post resonate with me? It is as if someone looked inside my mind.
Why does it always have to be when you have an idea that you are always in the most inopportune of circumstances to even be able to write anything down?
How does it work for you?
Well with me it is usually when I am lying down, doing an exercise to help take away the pain for my back. Now this brings me on to the subject of muses. I know another writer and she writes best when she is suffering. That is not to say that she writes morose subject matters, but for some reason it unleashes her creative potential bountifully. This particular person is a great poet and also writes Dear Emma diaries, which are in fact a journalistic diary writing to herself of accounts of her day or feelings, a personal insight which I really enjoy.
This makes me think if I have a muse, when I am suffering am I more creative? No I really don’t think so, having spent time at home has given me the ‘time’ to be more creative but when I am in pain, it engulfs me, I can do nothing else but try to get rid of it and this is usually by physical methods and yes that is probably where I am partially going wrong. Ack horrible to see it now, I should be using my mind as well. I guess I do but probably not enough which is where I should be meditating more. I see it time and time again how this helps people so I have not reason not to do it.
So back to writing, my mind always has a flurry of excitement at inopportune moments so I usually end up regurgitating this over and over, pondering it, changing it, repeating it in the hope that when I get to somewhere I can actually write it down and that this is what will happen. But usually by then like the statement above, it has changed and even the mere time it takes to go from my mind to my fingertips it has changed again.
I often wish that someone could just plug an app in to my thoughts/brain and take my ideas/creativity straight away and formulate it in to type, how wonderful that would be, then we get none of the morphing and changing inbetween.
What about journalistic diary writing, would I do that? I do it a bit for my ‘pain’ but at the moment I don’t write on my chronic pain blog quite as much which I see as a positive thing in an odd way but I feel guilty like I am letting down a supportive friend,which is nuts right? It is a blog my followers there generally follow me here, but it just goes to show how one gets atttached to our blogs, almost giving them some kind of weird ‘realness’ in humanistic form. Alright go get the straight jacket I have obviously lost it.
What is prevalent on my mind today. I shall be brave and talk about normal things in my life rather than the pain side and today I go for an interview soon. I didn’t really sleep last night very well at all. I discovered that any decent clothing I possess I had miraculously not washed, yet I knew I had to. What is that about? I sometimes think my mind has a perverse way of purposefully doing or not doing things just to make everything more of a challenge.
Right now not sure if I like this free writing thing only because I am now saying things that make me out to be totally ‘nuts’ LOL. I hear you all saying “well sheesh we knew that already”.
So back to the interview, it is with Age UK, to do some volunteering. I try to tell myself it isn’t a proper job. But heck it is, even though I am not getting paid it almost makes it more important. It is a charity, for a worthy cause and a charity that I can empathize with people that are vulnerable and have varying disabilities due to age. The position is admin, but I am happy to muck in.
Apparently quite a few others have gone for this post, they know about my ‘situation’ and have still asked to see me. So how will it go I wonder?
The interviewer is called Sue, will she be scary, or friendly? hehe
Back to the clothing issue, well I dug around in my cupboard yesterday for something to wear. I find a long black silk shirt that still has its tag on that I don’t even remember buying? How weird is that, brand new clothes in my cupboard I have no idea how it got there. So I am thinking of wearing this and black leggings with yes black shoes, then I think “uh oh, wearing black is probably politically really not the right thing to do when going for a volunteering post at Age UK, I mean its a bit morose isn’t it and close to the knuckle?”
So now I am on a total re-think on clothing, damn I just talked myself out of what I had thought was sorted.
I am looking at the clock now as I am only meant to type for 20 mins, but you see I type a 100 wpm, I am not good at maths so need to grab my calculator, that a whopping 2000 words and do I really want to inflict free writing ramblings that size on my readers? Haha not unless I want to lose readers, so I am going to stop now early and go and make teddy my french bulldog his piece of buttered toast!
Thank you for reading it if you did and if you didn’t I really don’t blame you…..grins
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You will find the days challenge here if you wish to join in – Writing 101 Day 1 Unlock your mind
Free writing for 20 mins over and I had to pop some pics in!